Walmart gave me PTSD

Yes, I went to walmart yesterday, good friday.
and yes, I am insane..
it was fucking nutso.
I seriously had all the symptoms of PTSD when I got home..
the line I waited in was like 30 MINUTES.
yes I said 30..
and the little old lady in front of me dropped her milk bottle off the belt, or rather it fell off the belt and split open at the bottom..
I being the nice person that I am, picked it up and gave it to the cashier to handle before it ALL spilled out..
and really, those cashiers need BOUNTY behind their cash registers, not the paper towels they have in the bathroom...coz those things do NOT absorb anything...

EVERY.AISLE. I went down had a dumbass in it that was IN MY WAY.
especially the candy aisle.
srsly
all I wanted was chocolate bunnies and jelly beans..
all I could find was sweet-tart jelly beans..that was OK I suppose..
I refuse to but cheap jelly beans. they are gross.
THEN I bought a bottle of what I THOUGHT was perfume for 5 bucks
Curve, SOUL..
yeah, that is MENS cologne.
why does it NOT say that on the FRONT of the bottle??
I was pissed when I got home w/ it..

the most exciting thing I bought was undies for me. hanes her way, cotton, low cut so they don't hang out of my pants..
OH and a shirt for me to wear tomorrow..so I don't look like a total schlub.

I swear every redneck moron was in wally world..I was irritated..
then of course I cannot make list to save my life, so I kept forgetting what I needed and had to circle around to get it..
I was SO annoyed..

Lets hope easter is fun or at the very least I get good food, which I am sure I will.
I deserve it..

Why I Love British people

as I was watching Dollhouse today I was reminded why I love the british accent/society..
They way the say schedule..it is so cool...
I like how the spell Colours...why, I don't know, but I love it..also in the same vein, favourite..
cheque..traveller & theatre (I misspell these 2 alot..maybe I was British in a past life)
ALSO Tonnes (aka TONS) that is cool..
mum is another...
the 'cockeny' accent is fun as well..
they have tea every day and stop whatever they are doing to do so...way cool..wish we could do that with coffee here!!

they smoke..a lot...lol..

the royal family is fascinating to me to me as well...

they have pubs, not bars..sounds classier...

they have boarding school..heh....

they have a PALACE! how cool...all we have is the stupid white house...

changing of the guard...and how the guards can't react to anything you do..hehe...

you can drink there at 16...what I wouldn't have given..lol...

Wanker. there is an awesome word. I use it alot..

bloody hell,git,telly, gobsmacked, loo,prat, pram..love those too :)

Monty Python came from England...Benny Hill....David Beckham (he may be dumb as a brick, but DAYUM he is hot..)

I am sure there are more things I like, but this is all that my addled brain can come up with :) enjoy!

Minor Annoyances

Monday.
it brings out my annoyances...and Dear Internet you get to listen..whether you like it or not!!


There is a new commercial for Comcast cable..and it ANNOYS me so badly...it took me a few days to decide I hate it..but I do. Here watch it


Oh and I forgot the tune is one that STICKS IN YOUR MIND like industrial glue...thank me later...heh...

was reading some trash magazines today at work..and wow. I saw something that was just sad...and so telling about young Hollywood..
Hayden Panettiere says that Paris Hilton is her HERO.
dude.
sad.
just sad...
OK enough about that..I know, I know 10 seconds of your life you won't ever get back..but I had to share...

ALSO, did you know they are doing a Star Trek Remake?
WTF?
WHY oh WHY do they need to do that...wasn't it cheesy enough the first time around?
granted I am a Trekkie to some degree, I am more of a TNG fan myself..but why re-do it..ugh.
annoying.

Also, Jerry Seinfeld is doing a Reality Marriage show..
would YOU take marriage advice from JERRY SEINFELD??
Seriously?
NOT for me thanks...
It's called the Marriage Ref

ugh.

The sad thing?
Reality TV will NEVER ever go away. ever.

Also, am PMSing it..which makes me wanna EAT everything that is not nailed down.srsly.
HELP.

Lazy one!

OK, so we all know *someone* in the relationship is lazier than the other...could be just a little, could be a LOT..
who is it in yours?

In ours, I am more on the lazy side by and large...maybe it should be called more 'lax'..
Del is very very fastidious in many ways..he is neat by nature (I am most certainly NOT) and that I think makes him more apt to be a go getter and get moving faster on projects( and actually finish them! I am notorious for not finishing things..)
I on the other hand am much better at cooking than he..I can get better deals...on anything really..
I tend to look at things much more positively than he..

how does it work for you all?

This was sparked by comments & a post at Her Bad Mother

Stupid funny things

I was just thinking today on the way home from dropping Gav at school, I have done some DUMB things. Well, let me rephrase that...dumb things happen to me...
and they are HILARIOUS sometimes..
Like, over the summer, I was driving just after a rain storm, and had the window down(I was smoking..yes...I know...bad me..) and I drove thru a puddle, it was BIG, and all of a sudden, SPLASH, in my FACE went dirty puddle water...in my face, on my pants..and it almost put out my cig...
and i was doing like 35 at the time..WTF??
It shocked the hell out of me, and it was COLD.
I bet someone was laughing their asses off at me...
I have NO idea, I quickly recovered and never looked behind me...lol..

and this winter, I was cleaning the windshield off w/ my wipers before we left, and I had the door open for some reason, and POOF all the snow came in on my FACE.

I just do dumb shit all the time...srsly.

any goofy stories you care to tell??

Silly Sports Rituals

OK so I am DIE hard, genetically predisposed-to-be a Pittsburgh Steelers fan(note- my spell checker did NOT have Steelers in it...tsk tsk...it does now!)
and as a die hard football fan, I have some silly beliefs/rituals...anyone else who is a hard core fan does too...trust me..they may or may not admit it, but they do.
When we lost the AFC Championship game to the Pats a few years ago, I attributed it to the fact that I wore a bracelet I had just gotten....I never should have worn it..I hadn't ever worn it for a game before..and when I did we had a gut wrenching loss...seriously. I boycotted ALL NFL news after that game. it was just too painful to watch..

When we WON the Superbowl in 05...I attributed that to the fact that we watched the game EVERY week w/ friends of ours, and we went there for the SB...and we WON..that was a grand old time..I wasn't sure if I was ever going to see the Steelers win a SB in my adult life...and O.M.G the high from that was just amazing...we went out on their back porch and banged wooded spoons against pots & pans..as did the WHOLE neighborhood w/in ear shot...heh...it was snowing to beat hell and peeps were setting off fireworks..OH it was BEAUTIFUL..cellphones were ringing constantly..it was just NIRVANA...

If they are losing a game, I have been known to leave the room,& miraculously, they start to win!!
I wear the same shirt sometimes...
and this week, I am going to be wearing the same outfit I wore last week...my Hines Ward jersey, a pair of tan sweat pants...& the same undies (washed tho...cannot be that gross..LOL..)
I am struggling w. the idea of watching in the same place tho..we were at my grammas and that is 40 minutes away...I may see if the friends we used to watch w/ are available...

at any rate, anyone else have any silly sports rituals?
I know Julie @ The Cool Mom Guide has No Pants Sunday..which I so relate to

why I LOVE my birthday!

see, I am a HUGE geek about my birthday...even at 34.
It is a day I can reflect on myself and who I have become...
I can remember w/ fondness my past birthdays..and know I am wiser now...
age is but a number to me..I don't feel any older now than when I was 18...wiser-HELL yeah, older not so much...
It is a day where I can feel giddy about a passing year...feel all excited because it is the anniversary of the date i entered the world, and made it a better place!!
and lets not forget the PRESENTS..and the dinner we always go out for..
even tho it IS 6 days before Xmas..it is STILL special to me..my mom ALWAYS went out of her way to make it fun, and a BIRTHDAY despite being so close to Xmas (she always had a party for me..now granted, I had my presents under the Xmas tree..heh..THAT was cool tho..) she always said it wasn't like I asked to be born so close to a major holiday..(even tho I was THREE weeks late..my due Date was 12/1!!)
My presents were ALWAYS wrapped in bday paper and not xmas (not so much now..she is slacking..lmao..)
& I always got SEPARATE gifts...never got ripped off..

I am a Sagittarius..on the cusp of Capricorn..I have Taurus rising which makes me more of a homebody...Sag's are typically lucky people, which I am to a degree, and klutzy, which is me..heh..TOTALLY.
We have happy go lucky..exhuberant and generally fun to be around..I am adventerous, social (sometimes..lol..) and know a little bit about everything, b.c I LOVE to learn..anything.
I have great comic timing...and remember WAY too many things..my ruling planet is Jupiter..hence the luck...I am a Fire sign, which you would know if you knewmy temper..lol..takes quite a lot to piss me off,but oohh buddy when I do go off..NOT fun...
I am very intense..& I hate to be penned in by anyone for any reason..jealousy sucks..lol..and i am not jealous by any means..
I am open minded by and large..and a live and let live kinda person..I am spontaneous too...AND very positive!! I love to give gifts ;)

of course, this sign has its bad sides too...we can embarrass our loved ones by accident by replaying their silly moments...we can also be tactless...I tend to like to spend money...sometimes frivolously..and I LOVE to accumulate stuff..also bad..lol..I can be moralistic sometimes to a dangerous fault..and I can be too free w/ my opnions..and WAY too honest sometimes...the small details in life always get me...lol..chores suck and have a horrible time making myself do things!

I found this is a description of Sag's Sagittarius governs the hips, thighs and sacral area; some astrologers consider Sagittarians as tending to suffer from ailments of the hips and thighs and being prone to sciatica and rheumatism.
THIS makes sense since my hips & thighs are well. bountiful..lmao...
my gemstone is Turquoise..which is good luck for me..and i love it ;)


OK so tonight I am going gambling at Mountaineer...yay! It is going to be fun...hopefully I will hit big..and Tom. I am going to do my bday dinner w/ the fam...

OK enough geekiness from me!!
I am off to get ready!!

the ways I hurt myself....

yes, I am a klutz....I have a LONG history of being this way.
one of my earliest memories is of falling down stairs and hurting my arm...I was prolly 3...at my step-grammas house and got to close to the edge of the stairs..I remember quite vividly my vision vibrating as I bounced down the stairs...and I ended up at the hospital w/ a sling...
another incident w/ stairs was when I was 10, and I was at a pool party and it was late...I went to get some food and as I walked down the stairs from the porch to eat, I slipped on the wet wood and fell, hurting my back in the process...ended up in the ER...I was fine tho...
I have a history of various accidents..riding my bike down the hill behind my house when I was 10 or 11..I hit a rock & went ass over tea-kettle and had a massive scrape on my knee for the start of school..
when I was 9 I got hit in the eyebrow area w/ a rock..bratty kid threw it at me...have the scar 24 yrs later to show for it...
various ankle sprains thru the years...and MRI on the knee from falling down stairs 4x in one month...
fractured a toe from stepping wrong off (wait for it...) stairs...
and the coup degras breaking my ankle on BOTH sides when I twisted my ankle and fell, putting all my weight on it..I ended up needing surgery and became the proudowner of a plate and six screws..

My latest fiasco involves falling down stairs, I was coming down to shut off a light, after I had been dozing in bed, and whenI stepped, the edge of the stair hit the arch of my foot, causing me to slip & bounce on my ass, down about half of the stairs...and in the process, my right arm hit every other stair, and I DISLOCATED my shoulder.
OW-fucking-CH.
I knew it was not right.
I could NOT Move it...you could feel the muscles bulging forward unnaturally..and the PAIN was excruciating...
this was at 11 PM..call the hubby, and off to the ER we go...got there about 12:30 or so...took till 3 AM to see the DR and no pain killers till then.
none.
but then I got Fentanyl...which ROCKED the house...and something else too..
and they reset my shoulder...it hurt like a MOFO..I said some CHOICE words (sorry mom & gramma...I sounded like a drunken sailor) and when the joint when back into place, it felt GOOD. like heaven must feel....
I am still sore, and in a sling for a few weeks...BUT everything is back where God intended it to be...heh..and the bestest thing?
I got PERCOET babey...yehaww...I heart percs...I have never had them before...and I like them!!!!!!

my weird skin issues

I have always had skin prone to itching and acne..I can't use cheap lotion..makes me break out..some perfumes make my skin burn for a while..make up has to be good quality..can only use certain skin cleansers and very few moisturizers..most glittery lotions or powders make me itch or get blotchy...and I get yeast infections from cheap body washes (TMI I know..but had to share..) & lets not even go into body acne..mainly my back..ick. it sucks. comes from my dads side of the family..

I recently started using 2.5% benzoyl peroxide gel from acne.org and it has been fantastic...has stopped the mildly cystic acne I had around my jaw line completely..I only get them once in a great while, if at all.

I have had an odd thing happen before a breakout twice in as many months..once on my chin and now on the nape of my neck, just where my hairline ends...so usualy when you get a nasty 'cyctic' type zit, you feel a bump under the skin & pain at the same time..well, these have been PAIN first, like you whacked it against something, THEN 3-4 days later the bumps show up..all in all it lasts about 7-10 days before it goes away...but I am mystified at the way it is starting..the pain first..then the cystic like acne..it is annoying and I have never had it happen to me before...I hope it is a fluke..will be mentioning it at my next Dr appt...

anyone else have this happen?
anyone have similar skin issues as I do??
I have to use Clinique make up to have NO breakouts at all..and wash my face EVERY NIGHT. talk about a PITA. oily skin kinda sucks..but then I have few wrinkles, so I will be OK w/ it :)

Wordy Wednesday

heh..leave it to me to be different!
I am just full of many thoughts..mostly completely random..no cohesive theme..at all!
SO brace yourself!

Morning routines..as far as personal appearances go...Mine goes as follows..
Get up, suck down coffee..take shower..which includes exfoliating my face w/ one of those mesh glove thingies, every.day I must do this or I turn into a huge zit..then after I am dried off, I apply a 2% benzoyl peroxide gel to fight said zits... then I decide if I am too lazy to straighten my hair or not, if I am, gel it and diffuse it dry..if I am up for it, I straighten via a blow dryer and round brush, then a flat iron if needed...then I decide if my skin needs to be lotioned up, and choose a nice scent and do so..pick a perfume most days, and head out..now, one of the perks to being a stylist is that I can do my hair at work if I need to, or touch it up anyways...which I so take advantage of..I also apply my make up there..that so rocks..
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thrift stores..I love thrift stores...they be awesome...most of my purses come from them..and they are super cute..I also get alot of new shoes there...and my kids get most of their jeans from them too..much of the pictures in my kitchen come from a thrift store..and alot of my books!!!
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I am re-reading Jean Auel Earths Children series..I am such a dork..but I LOVE them...it has captured my imagination from the first one I read...too bad she has to wait like 6 years inbetween books..*sigh*
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I love my husband so much..I still get excited when he is on his way home...and when I see his truck pull in..I know..geeked out..lol...
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I am really digging this blogging thing..I have met some awesomely peeps..I hope I keep this going for a long time!!!

OK that is all for now

adult ADD

yeah, when I say my 'ADD addled brain' I SO mean it..
I have been gtreated in the past for it w/ Adderall (sent from the GODS I say) and Ritalin (sent by someone who cares i.e. not as good as Adderall..but good)
SO today I was filling my pill box for the week, I added my cymbalta and then what I thought was my diuretic..then I took said pills for today...the diuretic tasted funny..so I look at the bottle and saw that it was my old RX for RITALIN (I stopped taking both Adderall and Ritalin b/c of my blood pressure..)
I am out of my diuretic and mistook my old Ritalin for it..
so this means 2 things..
1- I have to stop after work to get my script filled for the diuretic
2- I REALLY need to start taking something for my ADD again..I feel FANTABULOUS
my brain is working so much clearer and I am moving faster...
you never know how abnormal you are until you feel normal again..in my case, it is so painfully obvious...

New do!

So, I went into work to get my hair highlighted w/ my funky red highlights...and while my co-worker Kelly was drying me, she said ya know, I wanna do an inverted bob on your hair..I said OK..lmao..
and so she did!
it doesn't look that diff from the front, but the side angle is awesome!

another victim of my ADD

yes folks, I changed my template and layout AGAIN..
heh.
my attention span is so sh--oh look SHINY things!!

How do you say asshole in chinese?

Yeah, I'd like to know what it sounds like..coz I pretty sure I got called that when I got chinese take out last night..
Del always gets the same thing..kung-pau chicken...always.
for some ungodly reason,last night I circled on the menu...GENERAL TSO's chicken..not even remotely the same,not even in the same section..
WTF?
The lady was nice enough to allow me to reorder the right item, but gawd..I felt like such a dork...I was sure I had ordered the right item..

My theory on natural selection

OK so we know Natural Selection weeds out the weak and/or stupid people in the world..stupid people do stupid things, and therefore their stupid genes don't get passed on b/c stupidity kills.
WELL, this all went awry with Ugh and Ogh..cavemen.
Ugh was the smarter of the 2
Ogh was the dumbass..
Ugh became fond of Ogh for whatever reason (hey- stupidity is amusing to the rest of us..)
One day Ogh was going to go club a sabertooth for dinner, he went about it stupidly however(took a club instead of an arrow. for instance), and was very close to being the saber tooths dinner
Ugh felt badly for him, and his conciseness got the best of him and he had to go save him from being sabertooth kibble.
And this, Ogh lived to procreate.
Every stupid person in the universe is related to Ogh.

Ugh cared too much.
Which is why we STILL have stupid people.
No one lets them fuck up and die like they should.

next time you see someone stupid doing something deadly..do us all a favor..walk away ;)

did I stand on the scale wrong?

I am asking myself that very question..
why you ask? I have a history of having a difficult time losing weight..very difficult.
I like food (blush) and alot of it..I also like my 'free time' to lay around (read: play on the laptop..lol..) exercise bores me..lol...
well, in the last 18 months or so I have lost 26 lbs..TWENTY SIX.
that is very not like me...
now granted I have started working (since april) and have been on a diuretic for about 6 months..(for high BP..which I believe is weight related....)
so I am guessing a combination of those 2 factors has been instrumental in losing..
Part of me is thinking I stood on the scale wrong..coz I STILL feel all bloated and icky..but apparently not..I have been watching what I am eating too..more fresh foods, veggies..letting my stomachs cry for food go unheeded (heh)
I am STILL in the red zone BMI wise (39...w0w...better than in the 40's tho..)
for comparison here are 3 pics.
November 07




Jan/Feb 08 (before diruetic)

July 08

Useless facts about me

• I have no full siblings
• I am the oldest of 38 grandchildren
• I have been with my husband since I was 17
• I can tie a cherry stem in a knot with my tongue (endlessly fascinating at a bar)
• I breast fed BOTH of my boys- my youngest till he was 2.5
• I am not really a Dr but I play on on TV (AKA I know alot of medical shit..lol)
• I have been online since 99
• my parents were only married for 2 years
• my eldest boy was a surprise- I was in the middle of planning my wedding when I found out I was pregnant
• my best friend has been my friend since we were in grade school
• I moved out a month after I graduated from high school- I moved to Utah :)
• I LOVE to garden
• I smoke
• I JUST got a tattoo
• I learned to drive- when I was 22
• My mom, my dad and my gramma have the same phone number as when I was a kid
• I despise cleaning- but I like the results
• I have been a licensed hair stylist since 95
• My birthday is December 19
• I go to therapy once a week
• I have colored my hair since I was 13
• My family is littered w/ alcoholism yet I am not an alcoholic
• I was DX'd with major Depression
• I am medicated for afore mentioned depression
• My moms dad was schizophrenic
• I broke my ankle and have a plate and screws in my ankle
• My grandmother is married to my father in law (yet my husband and I have been together longer)
• my sister and I have the same cousin, but we are related on different side of her family
• I do not remember my parents ever living together
• I am a slight internet addict
• I just lost 25 lbs in 18 months
• I have almost at much gray hair as my mom (I am about 30% she is 45%)
• I procrastinate ALOT
• I have ADD
• Sarcasm is a parenting skill as far as I am concerned
• I LOVE to paint (walls, not pictures)
• I am a thrift store JUNKIE
• I can read a book in one day
• My favorite book is The Stand by Stephen King
• I heart CHEESE, any cheese... *drool*
• I gave birth both times with NO medication
• If I had one more, I would have a homebirth
  
• Both of my boys had the cord wrapped around them in one way or another at their birth
  
• One of my fondest wishes is to become a Doula
  

deep dark secrets

how many things have you done in your life you will never tell anyone???

Me, waxing philosophical

was reading another blog, the poster was talking about religious beliefs..
I was surprised at how many people do not believe in a god or a higher power...
maybe I am just that simplistic, or that much of a Pollyanna, but I had NO idea so many people are atheists...
my beliefs are just that- I do believe.. I do not know for sure that there is a god, but I do believe in God...faith is what it boils down to for me..I have faith that there is a higher being than me..

I don't pray perse,
I don't go to church (organized religion has left a bad taste in my mouth...)
I am a lapsed Catholic(but aren't more catholics lapsed than not?)
But I do believe..
I went to church w/ my gramma when I was a kid...my mom washed her hands of the church when they annulled her marriage to my dad when they divorced and he remarried a few years later..but she never gave me any negative feedback..

is it because my life has been relatively trauma free that I have Faith?
maybe...but I have had my own personal traumas in other areas..

what is your belief??